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I can't stop this addictive cycle Seeping down, searing a hole Into everything I'm trying to be I'm watching my progress unroll Before my eyes, there is a mirror Before this mirror, this is me A reflection of my hardships It's so much harder trying to be Something better, something sweet. Someone special, someone unique. Against this battle, I feel so weak. A smarter person would concede.

Yes, Everything's my fault. You're not to blame. So keep cutting me down, And expect me not to burst When I've had my fill of disappointment. Of course, You're just cracking jokes. Laughing your way To the top of the food chain, Where people just don't care To see an empathetic smile. Certainly, You are better than me. You are far too great for me to conceive. I feel honored to be near you. So don't spare my feelings when you joke. Maybe you'll figure out when to take responsibility. Or you'll just lose everything again. Maybe you'll learn to manipulate yourself, too. Or you'll just break yourself to pieces. Maybe I'll

Quietly, quietly, Under my breath, I wish you could see me Than more than just "she" I wish I could tell you stories Of who I am and what I wish to be I whisper to myself, How could I compare to she? There's so much more for you to see When it comes down to me And she, I fear the way it will always be. He becomes what I will see, And nothing happens to "we" And it will remain inside of me, Conjuring up something ugly.

How I wish I could rejoice for you If only we weren't running For the same thing And we all can see you're winning I wish I couldn't harbor something So sociopathic to a lesser degree, But I can't help feeling like a lesser person When it's you against me Well, I fear for the future's tales And prepare for the worst to come While you're ready and waiting for this And I'm outnumbered one hundred to one.

You wish and you yearn You toss and you turn You live and you learn And your stories still burn I kept you in mind And I'm starting to find I've wasted my time Waiting for mine. And now here I lay, Confused and sideways The laughs are astray And we're fading away

So, so hopeful Yet I know I'll be the one to fall So wonderful This hallucination makes me stand tall And I forget That I'm invisible and in a glass case Start the quartet I'm an opera of tragedies firing at alarming paces I take it you're not satisfied But you would you read between the lines? I know it's hopeless, This story's gotten so plotless, But you can't see me, With your eyes so dizzy Why don't you catch your breath? I'm running out of time. You'll breach too close to death, And I'm toeing the line. Why don't you catch your breath? I'm running out of time. You'll breach too close to death, And I'm toeing the line

You knew it, There was this turning inside you, One I couldn't quite grasp, I questioned you, I doubted you would leave me here, This state of a frustration and confusion With only the boundaries of my mind, The only part of me that wants to care. You knew the answer, You lied to protect my feelings, But the selfish way that humanity works, You were dying inside to tell me. But if only I knew, Knew enough to let my instinct tell me, Tell me that I was chipping at a brick wall That I would surely break down. You kept pushing, You kept screaming, Always running away. I know now. And I know now that there is not a doubt, Not

I'm on a road of my own, Speeding down these empty streets Where billboards all seem to moan Apathy grabs at your feet And asks you why You won't fall in Why you defy What lurks within I'm paving my way through fire Feeling through a blistering crowd I'm scraping down to the wire Screaming though nobody's around And you ask why I don't fit in When you ignite Well, my head spins Light yourself another match In between sighs Mend yourself a broken patch It would be wise I find myself a plan to hatch One for your eyes I've got a disease you could catch Only theorized, yeah. You fantasize and tell the world How your plan